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“Why would you go into the bush at this time of night?” the local head of the UN peace-keeping security task force asked Birame as he and Estelle discussed where we could eat at 10pm in this small town. We were sitting on the terrace, drinking flagettes, at their favorite local (and I would say expat) restaurant. This was my second time coming here, since we also came last weekend. The hermitage is a real restaurant and hotel, and not a shack on a dirt road. There were cocktails on the menu, and when DRC people come to Duékoué, they stay here.

Despite the fact that we didn’t end up finding any place that was safe to eat tonight, it was a crazy night. We had some drinks with a group of UN and UNOCI guys, which was an adventure in itself. Again, the stories they can tell you, about experiences working in different countries, different political situations, and different criminals, could be the basis of a new US television series. I think it’s the nonchalant way they talk about it, like it’s all so commonplace, that strikes me.

After our unsuccessful attempts to find food, we hooked up with more NGO guys and went to the same nightclub, or discothèque we went last Saturday. I’m beginning to see a pattern here. But I’ll never forget how we got there. We all drove together on flooded mud paths in the monsoon rain (it’s rainy season here), in a long line of giant UN and NGO SUVs. You know, like the ones you see on CNN. Apparently everyone working at a UN agency here gets their very own a large white SUV with “UN” in gigantic black letters on the side of it, so there were several UN vehicles. I’m thinking that the UN doesn’t believe in the carpool lane. People walking on the street stared at our ostentatious parade. We were on a mission…to dance. DRC was well protected in the middle of the chain, so we were laughing our asses off, about this freaking UN convoy to a discothèque in the middle of nowhere.

We went again to one of the three large discothèques in the town. It is off a dirt road, but surprisingly pretty fancy. There is posh furniture, a well-stocked bar and cool disco lights, but no running water most of the time. The music is mostly French-African, so last weekend I had a hard time getting into it, but this time, I really felt it. People, even men, love to dance here, especially everyone we were with, so it was truly a fantastic time. There’s sort of a regular crowd, so I guess now people are recognizing me. Last weekend, the entire club was staring at me on the dance floor, and that sucked. I’m pretty sure I heard people saying, “look at the Chinese, dancing” in French of course, which majorly irks me. But we were with a much bigger group this time, and these UN guys are mostly African (and thus are awesome dancers), so I felt right at home.

I have to admit I was excited to finally meet my first European expat in Duékoué. I was getting lonely being the only “la blanche” in the area. (That has apparently become my name in the neighborhood, and the kids yell that every time I jog by.) He was a new program director at another NGO that we frequently partner with. We basically implement most of UNHCR’s progams in the area. He was French of course, but had come from Yemen, and just like me he has only been here 2 weeks. An exuberant and friendly guy, I couldn’t help remarking that he was so so fun to dance with, but hilarious to watch. I apologize for the generalization but I have found this to be true of most of the white guys I have danced with in my medium-sized research sample. And, I just have to say it, white guys seem to be missing an internal rhythm and some sort of dancing gene. This is all the more apparent when you have 1 white guy in a room full of Africans.

We all danced late into the morning, until the usual electricity problems began occurring again. Tonight, the whole place when dark and mute 7 or 8 times. Then around 4am the electricity did not come back on. It was crazy because as the night went on, the crowd got rowdier and rowdier every time the power went out. People were singing at the top of their lungs, bangs on tables like drums and flashing their cell phones like candles.

adaptation

It was the best complement he could give me. “We feel like you are adjusting well and very quickly. You have already integrated yourself into the organization in little over a week.” I was so surprised! We had been meeting for a couple hours when the director of field operations in Duékoué told me this. He added that even the regional director of West Africa and the regional Finance Director, who visited a couple days ago, agreed. Wow, me? When I was young, I had a hard time adjusting to anything. I was rigid, cautious and intolerant to new things or changes. But as I grew older, perhaps life softened me out by throwing me some hardballs, and it was either adjust or be miserable, and I chose the former.

Truth be told, I am actually happy here. I was happy in Denmark and loved it, but I am also happy here. It’s completely different of course, but these new experiences, exchanges, and ideas reinvigorate me somehow. Despite the fact that we have no water, or electricity some of the time, I’m confined to what feels honestly like living in prison with the compound security, and I’m far from loved ones and nothing is familiar (i.e. music, language, culture, dress), it all seems fine.

It’s funny how quickly your perspective can change. Things that were once frustrating become commonplace. Now I go to faucets to see if there is any running water, and it’s like an exciting lottery game. If there is water, I am downright gleeful; it’s like a child at Christmas. I actually started saying a quick prayer each time there is water, thanking Mr. Almighty up there, even though I am not religious.

We have a little family here at the compound, Estelle, Birame and I, and the large staff of cooks, drivers, and security guards. Estelle is like a sister. We do everything together, although part of if is for security reasons, but it’s a good thing we get along! I even got her into my jogging and exercise routine. So now we run, and then do exercises on the concrete in the compound courtyard. I find it fun to have an exercise buddy especially since I wasn’t able to convince any of my friends to do this in Denmark. Apparently she used to be a handball champion and wanted to start exercising again anyways. I even got her to try the 150 crunches I do each day. She’s fast, and got up to 100 at first try!

We work all day from early until 8 or 9pm. Then we eat a fantastic dinner late every night, talk shop and watch the news on France24, or some pretty funny local programs, and they answer all my questions about life here. We stay up late and drink Tuborg (funny, huh?), or French wine, if people have brought some from Abidjan. Then past midnight we all turn in, and try to see it per chance there is a little water so we can shower. Then we wake up and it all starts again. Soon we will start journeying into the field and be traveling for days. I am looking forward to it! Although honestly I am a bit apprehensive to what the conditions will be like. This may be the Taj Mahal in comparison to the field, considering a huge part of our projects in this area are constructing water and sanitation with UNICEF.

The shops in downtown Duékoué.

Man, Africa is so so different. Culturally it’s as far from the west as you can imagine. The vast differences that you encounter, person to person and culture to culture, in every place on this earth, never ceases to amaze me. Here in Africa, the way that people live and think is so different from what I am accustomed too, it almost seems counter-intuitive to me! So every moment is definitely like a fish-out-of-water and that “aha” experience, i.e. so this is how things work here. The daily learning curve is steep. And then there’s the alienation, the most extreme feeling of being a “étranger” that I have ever experienced. Considering that I have felt out of place my whole life, growing up as a minority in the United States, it’s quite surprising. As a Asian person, I’ve even been stared at most places I’ve traveled. But rural Africa is on a whole different playing field. Today I got clearance to go to lunch in town with Estelle at a local place. There were no vehicles available, so I had to hitch a ride on back of Eloi’s moped on these crazy and bumpy dirt roads. Children squealed as I rode by, and Eloi had to answer to friends that were apparently yelling to him, “who is *that* on the back of your moped???” The shack we ate at only served one thing type of soup with bushmeat. More bushmeat, oh joy! It seemed like literally everyone in a 100-yard radius was staring at me with intense, and I mean intense, curiosity. This is probably the one place that no matter what I do, I just won’t be able to “blend” in. But, I love that when I smile, most people smile right back.

monsoon days

The rain is relentless these last two days, the compound is almost flooding! The staff here is like the rain. Everyone works all the time. We work from early morning until late at night. It’s amazing how much work gets done in a day, and yet there is still so much to do. And this, with constant electricity outages as well. It’s an uphill battle that seems quite the norm, and is only surprising to me. But I guess there isn’t much else to do here since we are stuck on this compound, in the middle of what I call the jungle (in which everyone laughs). But it is the jungle I tell you!

The ironic point is that we’ve had so much rain. So much that the clamorous pouring and thunder keeps me from sleeping at night, and yet there is no water in the tap. Water everywhere but the faucet! Someone joked we should take all our buckets outside to fill them up so we can shower. Who would’ve thought I could get used to this? “City mouse” Jeannie? Not me, that’s for sure. You can ask my boyfriend Erik, he’s been camping with me the 2nd time I have ever gone in my entire life, and I don’t do camping well.

Today I continued research on the evaluation of DRC’s Women Building Peace program, the UN Security Council Resolution 1325 (on women, peace and security), and the rapid rural appraisal method they use frequently here in the field. A mountain of reading I am trying to muddle through, but it is all very interesting! I have received enough reading material for weeks.

We eat dinner at 10:00 pm, or 22:00 for you Europeans! So passionate, I love it! The humanitarian field seems to attract obsessive workaholics. They live this stuff, and can’t get enough. They talk shop into wee hours of the night. Fascinating people. Last night was amazing, I sat for hours at a late dinner listening to endless stories of working with refugees in Kosovo in the early 2000’s. Various directors of the organization, une Danoise, un Français, and un Sénégalais, all united in their experiences in the Balkans. Tales of danger and intrigue, impossible projects and UN audits. I was shocked to find out that many humanitarian agency projects and staff are inadvertently used by intelligence agencies, like the CIA! Apparently they are unwilling bedfellows, because often humanitarian agencies are also positioned exactly in the hotbed of intelligence activity, in areas of strife and conflict. I feel so naive when I realize that this fact never occurred to me, and I can hardly believe it.

Patricia, our fantastic chef & compound mother!

On a side note the food is fantastic! Even if there is no water, we do have a cook on site. I love Ivorian food. It’s a bit heavy, but so spicy it makes your eyes water! Tons of chili, fish and rice here, it reminds me of Korean home cooking. It’s nice to be reminded of home. Patricia, our fantastic “chef,” told me today that if I can find her some Korean recipes, she will try to make something Korean. Now that would be awesome.